Spirituality


“I Want to See.”
By Blind Beggar Bart

My Blindness

I would like to take respite from answering another email because I feel it is important to complete my introduction to this column. But I thought it was also good not to have introduced myself right away because hopefully my initial writings have given you an idea of how my desire, or at least my curiosity, to write started, as suggested by my pen name and the title of this column.

The phrase “I want to see” as most of you might have guessed was lifted from the Bible, specifically Mark 10:46-52. They where uttered by the blind beggar Bartimaeus who, I thought, was so excited and desirous (or at least curious) to encounter Jesus as soon as he heard he was passing by. Bartimaeus was one of the few people in the early stage of Jesus’ ministry to accord him the Messianic title “Son of David” which he shouted not after (mind you) but before (!) he was even cured of his blindness, thus showing genuine faith in Jesus. In this incident, Jesus did not have to do anything but simply reply “Be on your way, your faith has healed you.”

There was a time, after relocating to a new place and enjoying a new phase in my life, when I started to feel some sort of emptiness and confusion, primarily triggered by uncertainties and unanswered questions. So as soon as my birthday came, I decided to confide in a priest. In a way I saw myself then to be like Bartimaeus before his encounter with Jesus, always questioning if his blindness would ever be cured. I don’t remember the priest addressing my concerns or answering any of my questions. He merely gave the above-mentioned verses for reflection. And over the years, these verses kept bringing me back to the very heart of my emptiness and confusion: I am [still] blind to the answers of my questions which, unlike the real “Bart” in the Gospel, is brought about by how little faith I have…

Do you see me in you? Then join me in this journey. For those who have just begun following this column, feel free to click on the links below to read my previous writings. Write me on almost anything under the sun and send it addressed to me (Bart), via admin@cafepearsall.com (for now) or go to Contact Us of this website. –BBB, 04/18/2010 [re-posted 4 years after on Palm Sunday, 4/13/2014]

Previous articles:
Spiritual Blindness (4/2/2014)
God Loves You! (3/16/2014)
That All May Be One in Repentance (3/7/2014)
No one Is, So Why Be Perfect? (3/2/2014)
Mature Love, (2/5/2014)
Let It Be Done According to Your Word: The Vanity of the Plans We Make (12/9/2013)
Our Uncontrollable Lives (4/11/2010)

 
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